Every day I show up
No day to take time off
Rest sits just beyond my grasp
Every day I show up and keep showing up
The half of my heart leans on me for strength
The apple of my eye calls me his greatest hero
And the little princess sees her first love
The weight of the trinity is one I carry with me
They come to me
Clinging and latching on
With expectant hearts and adoring eyes
They come to me for strength and safety
Therefore, I must remain steadfast
I cannot quiver, I cannot shake
Conceal, don’t reveal
Fake it till you make it
Yet the world offers me no reprieve
It seeks to devour and destroy me
And I realize I am not alone in this burden
It is not just me
We crush. We burn
Taking hit by hit, blow by blow
We hurt and we ache and we bleed
And we start to come undone
Sometimes the crown is too heavy to bear
Sometimes the weight of the world crushes me
And bends me lower than I should be
And the end of the bottle finds me
And I slip
I do not stop it
It doesn’t take the problems away
It momentarily quiets down the noise
And there is still a reason to stand
The flame still flickers within me
Because we serve a greater purpose
And we are needed
When I turn the knob
They race towards me
My heart melts
I am home
Held in my arms they feel safe
They drift off into sweet rest
Without a care in the world
And I watch. And I breathe. And I remain.
And still, I lift my eyes to the hills
To where my help comes from
The One who shows up when I cannot
And gives me rest
