Where do I even begin?
I have veered so far off the beaten path
I have descended down into a rabbit hole
Completely devoured by the deep wild woods.
What can I even say?
I open my mouth but my voice crumbles
The chokehold is tight that I can barely murmur
Besides, would you even care to listen?
Would you even want to gaze upon me?
After all that time spent away
After all the heartache I have caused
And after every vile thing I’ve done
One fleeting moment and I walked away
The pursuit of my selfish desires was all it took
For me to abandon the walk and to sidestep
After everything we’ve been through
The words are splattered all over me
Rubberstamped in red ink: a con and a cheat
The ink marks and scars on my body
A reminder of every horrible mistake
My eyes are cast down in shame
My shoulders carry the weight of my guilt
The window to my soul has been invaded
My heart is plunged in a deep sea of black
How can I even bring myself to stand in your presence?
What would you even want with a wretch like me?
I can’t even bring myself before your holiness
What can I even bring forth that would make me worth?
